I really felt like writing to you just now even though I have an important deadline tomorrow and I have a lot to do just now! This, in addition to the fact that I am about to fly home for Christmas soon makes me really anxious! I have also been trying to find out if I want to start on contraceptives again after coming off the Nexplanon implant because of problems with increased anxiety, loss of libido and migraines.
So, one thing at a time…
The deadline I am going to have to deal with after writing this post. I’m trying to think of this as a kind of therapy which hopefully will make me calm down a bit so that I can concentrate better on my coursework. In general I feel that putting my nagging thoughts down on paper works well to make me feel less anxious and get rid of those thoughts for a while. It makes me feel like I don’t have to keep thinking of stuff that I might forget otherwise or similar.
Something else that I just did that helped me calm down a lot was listening to one of my favourite hypnotherapy sessions for anxiety relief (see the video below). My problem is often that I don’t feel like I have a lot of time when I am really stressed out or anxious, e.g. because of a deadline the next day like today, and I don’t want to listen to a full hour or half hour recording. That’s when this little video becomes very handy, it usually helps me relax very quickly and only lasts 15 mins in total. I guess the fact that it is so short makes me relax more alone since I know I won’t be in too much trouble regarding my coursework for just taking a 15 min break.
I’ll also post this lecture about how to turn anxiety into calmness. I find it is very relaxing to listen to, although it lasts for a while so you might want to save this one for when you have a couple of hours to spare 🙂
Regarding my fear of flying… I usually just ignore it until the day before the flight when my anxiety becomes unbearable, have a major break down and then somehow I am still able to force myself onto that plane time after time… I fly about 6-8 times a year and my fear of flying goes up and down in intensity, was probably at its worst when I was on Nexplanon, hence one of the reasons why I stopped using it. At that time I would be shaking all the time on 8 hour flights and sometimes even throwing up, plus have diarrhea days before etc. It is better now, but I still feel anxious up to a month before I go flying on and off. The way I deal with this is usually watching some fear of flying vids online which explains all airline procedures etc or some hypnotherapy vids, otherwise I would sometimes have a pint of beer before I board the plane. Won’t recommend alcohol against anxiety as it can make it worse long term, and it is no way of tackling the root of the problem, however I do anything to just get on the plane sometimes and it works until you’ve found another method… At least for me… But I just stick to the one pint, just helps me relax a bit, but doesn’t make me drunk or anything. i.e. not dealing with that too well yet, still searching for a way to cope better with this. I’ll take any suggestions if you have some!
Lastly, I want to talk a little bit about contraceptives and anxiety. I have high blood pressure, chronic acid reflux and sometimes suffer from migraines without aura. Because of this, I am not supposed to be on combination pills which contain both oestrogen-like hormones and progeserone-like hormones. I have however been on a combination pill (think it was Mercilon) years ago for just about 6 months and I felt fine on it, had regular periods that were normal to me (only a bit of cramping the first day or so and medium bleeding). Although at that time I was working out all day everyday (almost) and think that helped my anxiety and blood pressure. After that I was off contraceptives for about 2-3 years before starting on Nexplanon (the implant) which went well for the first year or half-year before bad symptoms occured as mentioned above. So, I got it removed (which took about an hour btw, because the dr had never done it before. needed stitches after as well, although did not hurt, so don’t worry if you’re about to do it, it’s fine…) after 2 years and got my period back after about 1 month. First period was about as normal, but from the second onwards I’ve had really bad cramping and heavy-ish bleeding for about 4 out of 6 days (used to last 5 days max). Have now been off the implant for about 6 months and have to take prescription painkillers for the pains because ibuprofene was not enough. I would not like to be on these painkillers forever since my stomach probably can’t handle it, so I am hoping that my hormones will balance to normal in a few months, if not I will have to start on some kind of contraceptive again… Have checked many reviews on different kinds of mini-pills (progestogen only pills) and they all say different things, guess it depends on your body, genes etc on what works best for you. However I think that if you don’t have any big problems with normal period, just use condoms, try not to have sex when ovulating and do not take any hormonal contraceptives. I might have to start on them again though, but will in that case make sure I get something with a different hormone-like substance in it than what Nexplanon contains… That is something important I wanted to tell you, the different brands are made of different chemicals, so if one does not work well another mini-pill might work a lot better… Hope to find a solution to all of this soon!
Wow, long post! Sorry about that. Should have posted a potato in the end:P Please ask me if you have any questions about my experience on these contraceptives though or any other questions.
Talk to you soon x